Lately, showing up has been a great way to just write. Writing leads to more writing and I’m learning to be okay with not knowing where I’m going with my words. The funny thing is when I let the words fly — they do, and I find myself trying to keep up.
“The first trick, the one I’m practicing now, is just to start where you are.” Julie Cameron in The Right to Write, p 3″
And so today I am…
Tired.
You know the kind of tired where you are not really sure what day it is? You wonder, how much coffee is okay to drink on a daily basis and if your kids knew how tired you were they would toss you in the laundry room and rule the world. Yes, I am that kind of tired. It is coloring everything in my life.
Scared.
As God leads down new roads I am finding myself facing my biggest fear: failure. It has, over the years dominated my life. What if I try? What if I put on my faith shoes and what if I fall flat? What happens if instead of falling flat, I soar? What next? Either way, honestly, I’m scared.
Here.
I think I am finally in the place that God wants me to be. It only took 40 years and 4 babies to get me here. He knew it would. I am leaning in, pressing deep and holding onto Hope with both hands. I’m a mess on my own and with Him I can do all things. I finally get that now. This thorny place has me realizing that His grace, not my goodness is what is really going to get me through to the next moment.
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How about you? What words would you use to describe where you are?
love this! wow, i think i have many of the same words that describe you. weary. that’s my biggest one. but trusting God to renew that strength daily. which leads, ironically, to being right where He wants me to be.
thanks for sharing.
steph
Stacey, I have been praying for you regarding the writers block. Your post stayed with me and when you come to mind I pray. And this post is so lovely. I can relate to the scared and fear of failure. Something I am wrestling with God on daily, because I want to get to the place of freedom. At the same time I feel peace and confidence in Him as well. And after last Friday’s post: brave, something I didn’t even realize until I wrote from that prompt. Prompts are helpful aren’t they? Thank you for this.
Thank you so much Shelly. God is really meeting me in the middle of it. I was reading somewhere, that we are often blocked right before a big breakthrough. Hoping that is the case!
Your encouragement is so dear to me.
You know, I never thought of giving myself word prompts. I will have to try that.
As for words that describe me…I think I am bored. I want a change. I am looking for something to do that is different. I have been praying about this for a few weeks. He is working…I just have to be patient.
I love your what I wore on Wednesday posts…have I told you that?
Thank you for writing this today, Stacey. Sometimes I think that I am the only one that has trouble with words.
I liked the prompts so well I could not just pick one! Oh well, I think my feeling of disconnect has me a bit scattered and this post fit well today.
Thanks for the WIWW love! It is tons of fun, and a way for me to speak as just a ‘girl’ and enjoy the lightness of it all. I so need lightness in my life!
Blessings friend!
“I’m a mess on my own and with Him I can do all things. ” Oh, how often I’ve said that! And it always makes me feel better. It doesn’t matter that I’m a mess. It doesn’t matter what I can or can’t do. What matters is that with Him I can do anything He wants me to do!
Thank you Stacey! God bless!
I’m so glad that my mess is no problem to Him! He loves me no matter what!
So glad you are part of #writeitgirl! You are a blessing to this community Laura!
Hi, this is my first time reading your blog. Oh, I love your vulnerability…makes me not feel alone. I am a couple years shy of yours and I feel like I am just now getting it. I think I am finally where I am supposed to be with God. There is still so much I need to work on, but I am finally giving more to God, even the little things. I would say impatient and restless describe me…I am waiting on God to answer and guide me on some matters so that is where I am at. I am finally putting God first more than not and it feels good and I see Him working more and more. Love you post.
I think my words would be
Grateful.
I have such an awareness of the gifts in my life right now. Especially the gift of my salvation and the sacred opportunities to be His love in unsung ways.
Humbled.
I feel handpicked by God to serve in such unlikely ways. Ways I don’t deserve. Ways that leave a lasting impact, one life at a time. God’s changing my sight to see things His ways. It is so humbling.
Eagerly Waiting.
I still want more. I want to be more. Influence more. Have this fantastically huge ministry reaching mom and their daughters. But I also sense it is not God’s timing yet. I’ve been given the task of the little and need to steward that at this time.
Thanks for the opportunity to reflect!
oh the words you can shed when you simply show up! Proud of you.
and I love the idea of using word prompts. I’ll have to remember that…thank you!
I am overwhelmed with all He is showing me this Lenten Season. Actually, if I’m being honest with myself, I’m overwhelmed that He loves me this much. That He would take the time to answer my prayer and show me all I asked to see. What love!
So blessed by you. Thank you for sharing your heart with me!
“As God leads down new roads I am finding myself facing my biggest fear: failure. It has, over the years dominated my life.”
This really speaks to me because I think as women, we are truly the more fearful bunch. I try, we all try, to leave things in His hands but sometimes it’s hard.
Glad to know I am not alone!
Well, your showing up is paying off. That was a wonderful post. I can relate to all three but I think fear comes in the most often as I am writing. But the Here, makes it possible to rest in what God is doing and slowly let go of wondering if what I’m doing is good enough. Thanks for sharing where you are.
I love you sister-friend and writer. I can relate to the writers block and to needing some prompts, but I do see God realeasing me more and more, and I see it in you. You are a blessing to me.
My words would be….
Anticipating, Seeking, Moving
Can’t wait to see where God leads you.
Thank friend! Hope it works out for us to visit next week!
I loved this, Stacey! I can relate to all of your word prompts!
I think my words would be seeing, abiding, persevering.
Thank you for sharing your heart so openly and encouraging others to do the same! Blessings, friend!
I had such a bad case of writer’s block this week that it prevented me from writing and linking up. In this season of my life, I would say:
Tired – with all of my responsibilities I feel often like a dog chasing it’s tail. Will I ever stop?
Lovesick – I am love sick for more of Him.
Desperate – for the motivation and will power to lose weight!
Ha! there you go!
I love how real you are – always. Those first words to this post have been tumbling around in my head for a few days: Showing up.
We miss so much when we fail to show up, don’t we? John Mayer has a line in a song I like “don’t chase the place you’re in”. Being in the moment, being in the season, being in the quiet, showing up and embracing the empty/hard/crazy/tired can fill us.
Coffee is ok and what a celebration to accept you are where God wants you! Grace overflowing to you!
Robyn Q