So the big news this week is that Steve Jobs has resigned as CEO of Apple.  In a letter to the Apple Board and Community he said:

“I have always said if there ever came a day when I could no longer meet my duties and expectations as Apple’s CEO, I would be the first to let you know. Unfortunately, that day has come.”

As I read this I had one thought: What happens when you are a mom, and you feel like you are not meeting your duties or the expectations of others and you can’t step down?  Who do you let know?

Here is my letter:

Dear Lord, {I figured I should go straight to the top}

I have always said (well lately anyway) that if I could no longer meet my duties and expectations as a wife, mom, teacher and cheerleader to the 5 others living in this house, I would let you know.  Today, that day has come. I have…

  • yelled
  • screamed (is that same thing?)
  • cried
  • asked forgiveness
  • yelled
  • screamed
  • cried
  • and, well you get the picture.

I’ve pretty much fallen short in every category. I am tired and not really good for much right now.  The trouble is, Lord, that I need to be amazing and I’m fresh out of amazing. At least it sure feels that way.

Lord, I’m dry.  Empty.  Hit the wall.  I got nothing.
I just thought I’d let you know.  But then again, You already do.

Psalm 139:1

O Lord, you have examined my heart
and know everything about me.

: : :

So, friend, can you relate to this?

It is okay if you can’t, you can just pray for me or send chocolate.

I so wish we could have this chat at Starbucks, but let’s chat in the comments!

Update:

(This blog post inspired an entire book. To find out more, click the image below)

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Original Post Date: August 25, 2011.